mentalistic

As I am rushing my life away, I don't have usually time to publish my posts. I have soo many interesting thoughts during the day but by the time I get to the computer they are gone again.I'm good at making excuses.
Still, I need to write. I feel like rushing with soo important things.But first I need to explain what is going on.I have hurt a good mate of mine some months ago really hard.But now I feel like I owe him something and I think I really like this mate. A lot. But maybe it's just a way to forget my past mental things.
This time it's different. And more complicated.
It used to be so fun and really, um.."chill" , but there came a time when things changed because he felt sth. Now it is going to be the same, but now the person that feels sth is me.
MENTALIST.